Nearly there…

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Photo credit: K Dolman 2019 UPDATE 27.6.19: what I got in to this morning at work…

So, after quite a long while, lots of wine and not a few re-writes of the evaluative statement, this week sees the Chartership journey come to a (potential) end. I am about to press the BUTTON! (Cue: drum roll, dry ice from the ground, glitter from the sky, et al. You get the picture…).

I’m not entirely sure how I feel about it, to be honest. On the one hand, I am feeling quite excited at the prospect, slightly nervous and hollow-bellied, but happy to be finally in a position where I have been able to send the promised email to my colleagues about a well-earned drink on Friday evening (pressing the submit button is just an aside to this 🙂 ).

On the other hand…I feel like a child who’s had her favourite toy taken away, or my 20 year old self receiving tickets to the panto, rather than to the Bon Jovi concert: as if my life has moved sideways somewhat and isnt following the designated course it is meant to follow…sounds ridiculous, right? (To set the record straight: I did enjoy the panto, but would’ve enjoyed Bon Jovi more, particularly as I was dressed for the latter, rather than the former 🙂 ).

But when I reflect on the journey that has brought me to this point (reflect, moi, kidding, right?), I realise that I have invested a huge amount of effort into this process; much more than probably anything I have ever done before, apart from being a Mum and maybe my Undergrad degree (which took me six years: procrastination at its best). When I think of all the training I’ve done, the conference attendances, the negotiating, the resources designed and delivered, that have all contributed to being able to submit this application, my mind boggles. And I haven’t included all of it, just the bits that were relevant. And this is without having to gather the evidence, organise and order it (which I should be good at!), write the evaluative statement amid the struggles I have with being reflective, blog posting (ok, not been exceptionally brilliant at keeping this dialogue going: my bad), networking and getting to grips with the portfolio platform (sorry, CILIP, it’s not the best…) that I have also had to do to get to this point! I don’t even want to imagine how many hours it has likely taken me. I should really have kept a spreadsheet but I think that the sheer numbers would’ve made me run to the hills (see what I did there? I’ll get my coat…).

That said, I need to make a shout out to a fair number of people who have supported me during this time, and that’s the reason for this blog post (and not to whinge about the amount of work I’ve had to do: I made my bed…). Cue Oscar acceptance speech…

First and foremost, my mentor, without whom I wouldn’t be at this point and who has put up with me and supported me through an incredibly hard part of my life. Submission has been dogged with family issues, illness, accidents, weather, holidays and just my complete incompetence at times (Me “I’ve done my re-evaluation of PKSB”. Mentor “I cant see the changes” – four hours of work not saved…). Throughout the process, my mentor has been steadfast in supporting me and I am incredibly grateful and humbled by the dedication I have been shown. I am keeping this anonymous, but you know who you are. Thank you, from the bottom of my heart.

Also to my managers, past and present, who have also supported, encouraged, cajoled (and occasionally threatened 🙂 ) me into getting this far. Without you allowing me time, space and training budget, I definitely wouldn’t be here. Again, you know who you are and I thank you.

And not forgetting my long-suffering work colleagues, family and friends, who have all put up with my whining, prevaricating and repeated announcements that ‘this is the week!’ for the duration of this process. A combination of encouragement and ‘tough love’ has been available for me from various sources during this journey and again, part of this is down to you lot. Deal with it. 🙂

Lastly, to my lovely partner who has shared this with me, much in the way that I shared his PhD write-up all those years ago (although he hasn’t checked my referencing). I told you it would be pay-back time, at some point, Just think of the money…

So. Nearly there. I’m signing off (as they do in those weird sci-fi films where the aliens/fungus/suspicious buggers in long coats have eaten the rest of the crew/humanity/the planet) with some words of wisdom. Watch this space…